|Used with permission|
Town Hill Horse Trials 2014 was the year Sug and I were on fire and showed up for all three phases. In essence, we finished our career together with a fourth place. And, we finished in style - fast and furious with the promise of being back at Novice after 3.5 years struggling with nerves.
I was filled with the feeling of that victory over my fear this weekend. It was mostly exhilarating with those moments of sadness.
Time... Damn, it takes time to build a relationship and the trust I need to feel confident. Time... it owns me and teases me. I am like a three year old who hasn't had a nap... "I want it and I want it now!"
Maisy is turning out to be kind of special (no quotes intended). Under saddle she is a rock star... not a spook in her and she LOVES to jump, wants to go to the jump and looks for more jumps. And, I can ride her in the dark out in a field and she is ok with that... even at the canter.
And, she whinnies when I come into the barn and looks for me when I'm there. If I get unseated or rattled when she over jumps, she quietly waits until I reclaim my space. There is not a mean bone in her body. She wants to please and I love her more each day.
|Truly a good girl!|
Maybe the sadness is tinged with a little guilt. Maisy is not Sugar in so many ways. Sometimes I miss riding the Wild Thing but mostly, I know how much of my confidence issues were and are a result of riding the Wild Thing. Maisy has the wonderful gaits, the beauty and the talent that Sug had without the drama. And, it feels just a little guilty saying that.
I'm doing the time and we're getting to be a team and maybe soon, jumping will be just another fun thing to do rather than the event to prepare for it is now. Maisy is like that... And, I am glad that she came into my life.