- Leave Together, Come Back Together
- Don't Scare the Spectators
- There is No Crying in Eventing
- Nobody Cares on Monday
Hmmmm, do you think anyone cares on Thursday? I followed all Four Rules at GMHA's Spring Horse Trials this weekend and I still am bubbling with joy. You see, we completed AND I had fun before, during and afterwards! For some of you, that's a given... for me, it's rare and sporadic.
Almost three years ago at Groton House Farms, I looked right when I should've looked left and hit a tree. (If you wanted to catch up with the "gory" details read Landmarks vs Obstacles.) It's been a long trek to find the joy "in the moment" again.
This weekend was spectacular in its normalcy - normal preparation and normal nerves. My big goal? I wanted to want to do this without the paralyzing dread and self loathing that comes with my fear and anxiety.
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The Stadium course was a "sea of jumps" complete with gates and a brick wall. Our course walk started a mere hour before my start time and I was impatient/antsy to move along. This is where I missed the coolness of the Bestest Eventing Buddy. She managed time like she was running NYC's mass transit system.
Like a child at her first show, I ran back to the barn to get ready and arrived in the warm up 45 minutes early. And like a kid in "time-out", the Eventing Trainer sent me back to the barn to chill out... Ooops!
Like a child at her first show, I ran back to the barn to get ready and arrived in the warm up 45 minutes early. And like a kid in "time-out", the Eventing Trainer sent me back to the barn to chill out... Ooops!
Last year, I had a serious and embarrassing meltdown... so bad that the Eventing Trainer had to talk me off the ledge and into the ring. This year, I went into the arena and rode the best SJ course I've had in years... no grimacing and, my Grrrr was a soft confident "Good Girl!" Double Clear and in second place.
My Cross Country time was at 8:04am... Now the Training Level riders and above have the early morning rides down to a science. Us Beginner Novice and Novice riders usually have plenty of time to obsess about our courses. My 8:04am time meant no coffee... And, if you even know me a little bit, you know that my morning coffee is like methadone to a recovering addict. I don't just want it, I NEED IT!
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So, for the record.... My apologies to all the spectators, officials and jump judges that heard me call my beautiful lil' pinto pony a shithead at what might have appeared to be random places on the course. If you heard me, it was because my lil' girl was propping and spooking while galloping... a feat of great athleticism.
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Seriously, who cares! Yes, I want a nice ribbon... I really, really do! In some respects, I really, really won because I had fun... FUN, FUN, FUN!!!! And the fun was in the moment!
{{{{Per my clinic with Daniel Stewart, FUN is both a feeling and an acronym - F*CK U Nerves!}}}
4 comments:
Yay! So glad you had fun! That is a win!
(Love the acronym for FUN!)
Good for you!!!! So happy you had FUN! I hear you on the coffee too..
This is a joyful, energizing and confidence-inspiring report on your experience!!! Love it and CONGRATULATIONS to you and Sugar!
WOOHOO! Congrats on having an awesome show -- and sometimes (well, for me most of the time) it's not really about the ribbons, it's how you feel about your rides. And it's obvious that you got a blue ribbon in that regard :-D
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