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And in not so distant a past, a "professional friend" asked me to think hard and try to remember a time where change resulted in something terrible. I immediately thought about leaving a secure position to take a job with a crazy, bullying boss and then, remembered that it led me to a new and better job that provided me with the means and the people that helped make my dream of owning my own horse come true.
Shopping for a new partner has been an amazing, wonderful, tearful, exciting, disappointing and interesting experience. And, I think I may have a new friend, pending the Pre Purchase Exam (PPE).
And that, my friends, has filled me with angst. She (wasn't it supposed to be a boy?) is a pretty gray (but wasn't I supposed to get ugly and bay?) who has hunted first flight in VA(wait, wasn't it supposed to be an event horse?). I can not stop wondering if I'm making a mistake... the "What ifs" are killing me.
And then, I hear the Wise Woman... "This is just another step forward in your journey, just another path to take" and I am comforted. And, when the "What ifs" rise again, the "professional friend" whispers in my ear, "When has change done you wrong?" I am comforted.
My Eventing Trainer said that I am still living with the memory of Sugar and putting everything in her shadow. I knew her so well that even with some histronics, I had the confidence built from a long term relationship.
If this new lil' girl passes the PPE, I will have a lovely friend, with good gaits, an awesome jump who can gallop in her home field without leaping in the air. I wonder and smile. I guess my "professional friend" is right... Change is just another part of life's journey.
Shhhhh... I still miss that kissable nose!