Shhhhh... don't tell anyone, but being superwoman is exhausting. And, it makes me a cranky girl... um, really cranky.
This morning began like all others - up at 5:30am, walk da boys, feed the horses and clean Sug's stalls and then head to work. Well, my attitude wasn't quite perky and when Chandler knocked the grain over and Jonah rushed in for the kill gobbling up as much as possible, I... well... shrieked like a shrew and startled the entire barn.
And despite the nice before-we-get-to-the-barn-walk, Chandler was antsy and if I moved too far away, he whimpered and whined. And if I was out of his sight, he barked. Jonah, over compensating for Chandlers antics wanted to be in my space which is also the space for the pitch fork and manure. It was an awful display of whining and whimpering and that was just me!
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Simple, huh? I don't know what it did for them but for me, the stress left, time became irrelevant and things got done. Oddly enough, things that needed to happen... like a favor to benefit a negligent client, happened. A solution to a big problem worked itself into the day and I got a huge referral from one client to a potential new one. Gifts... all of them!
Tonight I will find the time to ride, finish my laundry, pack the dogs and I for the trip home and set Sugar up for my peeps to take care of her while I'm away. I am filled with a calmness that has been missing for days (maybe weeks) as I rush to "finalize everything" before I head home to NJ. That smile fills my heart and energizes my body (caffeine helps too).
I did not win the MegaMillions jackpot last night. I bought a ticket and I made plans, elaborate plans, to manage it. And yet, my numbers randomly chosen by a machine were not selected randomly by another machine. Maybe, just maybe... I was meant to win the even bigger jackpot this Friday.
It's time... really time... to let go... enjoy...
FOLKS, HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS OR A HAPPY HANUKKAH! MAKE IT HAPPEN!