|One week before|
Honesty continues to rear its ugly head... and, by now, you may be bored with hearing about... "my mojo is reluctant to come forward, my inner cowgirl is working at Walmart and my GRRRRRRR is a squeaky tiny guttural sound". And, this weekend, it is apparent that getting over 2011 is gonna take some time.
So when Sugar came into the weekend Jumping Intensive spooky and quirky, I rustled up the strongest Grrrr I had. And as we came around the spooky corner to the (maybe 2'6") oxer, I wilted, did not kick on and she spun. I spanked her for quitting.
And when we went to do it again, she showed reluctance. This time I kicked. She jumped huge and anticipating a "correction" she bolted. I was angry and "corrected" more fiercely and expressed my dissatisfaction with a string of truly ... um... salty (inappropriate)... words. You know, the kind you hear in gangsta rap songs, action films and well, maybe construction sites... not nice language for a "lady".
|Smiling with Eventing Peeps|
As we warmed up this morning, Sugar spooked at another oxer placed along the indoor wall. I sputtered and kicked her on... Her spooking got worse as she "looked" at the other jumps. It felt insurmountable. I felt like I was heading for a repeat performance. And I did not feel capable of dealing...
Then my Eventing Trainer suggested that I pat her and encourage her with a few "Good Girls". Each pat on her shoulder released tension. I could feel her soften with the words, "Good Girl Sug, Good Girl". And, the spooking stopped. My own little version of a Christmas miracle. This ride, this morning on this day, Sugar needed to be loved through her issues. It may not work next week, but it was lovely today.
|We will get there!|
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And after releasing said tears and saying all the words that came with them, my Event Trainer shared her story and the tears shed on her path to return. Time and the desire to do it will make it better. And, when I do my first Training, it will mean so much more... I just hope Sugar won't be too old by then.
And, today I was loved through my issues. Good Trainers are hard to find and when you do, they are worth a fortune.
It's gonna be ok... it's gonna be ok...