When is it time? When is it giving up? When is it my time and not his?
They tell you that you'll know... that they will tell you. Then someone slips in the clinical signs, "can't get up, won't eat, incontinent - any one or more of those things may mean its time.
|The Happiest Dog|
A wise vet told me that she would rather do it "one month too early than a day too late."
Jonah is my friend and he's been through so much with me. He was never the favorite - a shit head puppy, the Convict - kicked out of every barn in New England. Oh, they loved him as they banned his eager hungry self for his gift for finding food was legendary. I almost went broke reimbursing friends, neighbors and barnmates for all his stolen loot.
If Jonah had been a man, he would have been the BFF I should marry - loyal, eager to please and always there when I needed him. But alas, he always remained the BFF while the Bad Boy, Chandler was the pup I married.
It's just a cough and yeah, its harsh but he's fine when its over. And yes, sometimes its so violent that he loses control of his bowels but really, its ok... Not much of a mess, just hard little balls of poop.
There is not a more joyful face than Jonah's. His eagerness to please is palpable. There is no greater expression of that joy than the greeting he gives when you come home. It's a complete physical experience - a wiggling body, a wagging tail whipping trinkets off the table as he weaves between your legs.
|Jonah and Chandler|
Not now, look how happy he is. Look he is eating with gusto. Not now, not yet.
But that cough - Maybe in a week or two...
But that cough - It really isn't that bad, right?
But that cough - "Jonah, please breathe, come on boy, just breathe..."
One month early versus a day too late...
I hold his face in my hands. I tell him the story of his life. I apologize for not loving him as much as he loved me. I stroke his thick black coat and I promise him peace....
Is it one month early? I pray that is really isn't a day too late.
Rest In Peace - Nightwinds Sweet Jonah - 11/25/2005 - 10/14/19
I was lucky to know you!